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Post by SIENNA RAE WARD on May 24, 2012 19:21:54 GMT -5
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as she walked down the main road cars were zipping by and speeding past her sending her hair flying in the wind. most of hte drivers were drunk, going to get drunk or just trying to get home from some late night escapade. sienna crossed her arms over her chest and continued to walk. with every step she took her mind wandered as to what was causing her not to sleep. she knew what it was in the pit of her stomach but she didnt want to think it. a few weeks ago, two to be exact, sienna took a pregnancy test and it was positive. throwing it in the trash right away she continued her life. she wasnt pregnant, no way. she didnt even know the father. feeling her stomach lurch sienna paused and leaned against a wall. she felt as if she was going to pass out.
after a few moments of silence she continued. finally reaching the gates of the dock. her parents used to have a boat down here but sold it for some extra saving money. slipping through the gate, sienna headed down to the most empty dock there was. as she stepped she looked at the wwater, it was dark. cold. seemingly bottomless. the moon danced on the waves of the atlantic ocean and sienna had reached the end. she stopped and stared out at the sea. feeling her stomach turn. she was pregnant. she couldnt deny it. but she didnt know what to do. maybe if she jumped no one would notice. she slowly slid her jacket off and wrapped her arms around her body. slipping out of her shoes she walked to the farthest tip of the dock, so her toes were hanging off. she gulped and stared out. part of her wanted soemone to come stop her, but part of her just wanted to end it all. you said you felt so happy you could die |
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Post by CLARY MARIE DANVER on May 27, 2012 19:27:44 GMT -5
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clary stumbled out of the club exit, giving people the idea that she was drunk, or at least a little tipsy. she didn't mind it though, it just made people stay away from her. she could have done without the snickering, apparently celebrities that were drunk were like a disease, something you talked about but that you didn't want to come in contact with. as soon as she escaped the crowd outside the club, she started walking more gracefully and even sprayed perfume on herself to keep the scent of alcohol away. she hadn't been drinking, she could only handle two drinks at most. she wasn't like her sister who could party to no end and still come out of it gracefully. there were times when her agents wished she were like her twin, wild and carefree just like a teenager should be. instead she shied away and stayed in her little corner when she wasn't comfortable with someone or a lot of someones. which was why she had to get out of that club, she just felt so out of her element. she loved to party, with her friends. not with people that only liked her because she was somebody.
it had taken quite a while to sneak away, they always kept a close watch on clary to make sure no one dangerous got near her or to make sure that she didn't embarrass herself. she pulled a cigarette out of her purse and lit it, smiling as she took a drag and the smoke made its way into her. her first time smoking hadn't been a walk in the park, but since she started she just couldn't stop. she wasn't a complete addict but it did help in times like these. times when she just didn't belong in this world. she continue walking, unsure of where to go. she had only been in miami for a while and most of her time had been in studios or at photo-shoots. she hadn't been able to actually enjoy the city. she watched people walk past her, happy that she wasn't recognized. it would have been a bitch to be hound by random people. it wasn't long before she reached the docks. how she got there was a mystery to clary. she had only been there once and that was for a photo-shoot on this beautiful boat.
she continued to let her feet guide her, only stopping to admire a few of the boats. she was a lone but she felt so at ease. she was half-thinking about inviting her sister to come when she noticed that she wasn't alone in this place. at first, she thought she was seeing things until she took a couple of more steps and saw the girl. she was on the edge of the dock, clary was sure she would have been able to smell the fish from where she was at. she would have asked but she got the nagging feeling that something was wrong. she got as close as she could, keeping her footsteps quiet. when she was within hearing distance, she spoke. "are you okay?", the words seemed so idiotic for some reason. the girl looked close to plunging into the water, obviously she wasn't okay.
notes, hope this post was good (: click for outfitword count, five hundred and forty seven. thanks brooklyn from caution
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Post by SIENNA RAE WARD on May 31, 2012 23:11:28 GMT -5
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sienna had read the gossip articles. they attacked her for being a whore. opening her legs for anyone, but in reality she wasnt like that. she had only ever been with two people before him. she let out yet another sigh. she noticed that she did that alot now, sigh. suddenly, she felt as if she wasnt so alone. she froze up, she had never been out this late at night and the last thing she needed was to get kidnapped. she stood up and turned around, but noticing it was only a girl, she felt relief. the girl seemed cautious towards her, maybe it was because she was just about to jump into the water. maybe the girl knew something was up.
she stared at her a few moments before the girl broke the silence. she nearly jumped at her words. im...no im not she couldnt lie. sienna wasnt the type of girl to mask her feelings, no matter what feeling it was. she let out a huff and sat down on her stuff. she looked at the girl, the cigarette was so tempting. if youre willing to posisbly eff my baby up by giving me one of those id love you she chuckled and ran her hands over her stomach. she was kidding, but a cigarette sounded lovely to relieve her stress right about now. you said you felt so happy you could die |
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